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Depression. An illness that affects 1000's of people. The only thing that varies is the level of it. Starting from something as small as a little cry or feeling down for a few minutes, right up to wanting to commit self harm. Many things can cause people to become depressed and depending on how deep into depression you go once your there it's hard to come back. Medications can be prescribed to help bring your mood up so to speak but they are only a temporary fix and I believe without help and without helping yourself it's a long road to recovery. When someone you know is down and could be depressed or suffering from depression it could be shown in many different ways. These could include anger, sadness, pushing loved ones away, acting strangely towards others, not sleeping, avoiding social activities etc. This could be seen by those around them as someone just having a bad day. If it is over a longer period of time it may be more than just that. Unfortunately human nature i...

Sunset Panorama Originally uploaded by Squeakaz A beautiful end to a day that turned out to be not so beautiful. After a hot morning and then a wet afternoon mother nature turned on the colours for a beautiful sunset. From what I read on Twitter not everyone was fortunate to see this. So here it is. Enjoy :)

I haven't posted here in a while but I thought I would share something here that I posted to my Facebook. Nobody knows the hand we are going to be dealt in life and quite often it takes something bad to happen before ppl realize what is most important to us. I am one of them. There were times when I made the wrong decision, or whinged about something that was not worth whinging about and even worried about something pointless. Money and possessions seem to play a big part in our lives when they should play just a little one instead. Our friends, family and loved ones should be number one, but quite often this is not the case. Take care of and love each other and never loose sight of what really should be important to us all. -xx-oo- - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad

Trying a little positive note. Here are a few photos that I took. This is my first real attempt at this type of photography. Let me know what you think.

So it has been 16 or 17 days since I have read or posted to twitter or Facebook. All push notifications are off and The accounts are sitting there in idle. Do I miss it? Simply yes. However I won't return to it as I do not want to get hurt again. Is it effecting me socially? Yes. The only things I now know from Twitter is if someone mentions it and I stare blindly at them as they expect me to know what they are talking about. It's has become quite clear what people think of an online persona that I apparently have, and it has also become quite clear that even though I see others that reflect a similar online persona to the one that I apparently have, they are still around. Double standards much? As my previous post explains I have attempted to be social but it appears that if I'm not talking to them through twitter or Facebook, they don't want to know me. Emails ignored, sms's unanswered. Even down to birthday wishes sent but I don't know if they were receiv...

I don't normally post things like this but this seems like my only source of release at the moment. Should I give up being social? Over the last week I invited 3 friends to meet up and have a coffee. None of them replied. I can understand maybe one or even two of them ignoring me but all three. Hmmm. After a crappy week I thought it would be good to meet up and have a chat with a friend but seeing I didn't get that chance, I relied on the things that always cheers me up, my beautiful wife and puppy and the progress on my new home. Thankfully not all was lost. Yesterday I attended a party for a friends birthday. It was good to just chill and have a good time. Happy Birthday Druey :-) Looks like another week ahead on the other side of happy. - Posted using BlogPress from my iPad

This last week has been really crappy for me. I seen and read some things that were well to say the least hurtful and not too nice at all. Today made me feel a little better, when we met our soon to be neighbours. For those who don't know we are currently building a new home. All the info can be found on my building blog http://www.squeakbuilds.blogspot.com We popped by this morning to check out the progress and we were lucky enough to meet our new neighbours. I don't think they will cause us much trouble and they even get along with our puppy. It is a relaxing feeling to be building in a semi rural area and have this sort of thing at our doorstep. So peaceful. Heres a pic of our new neighbours.